made this for gen. she made smt else for us. yay! so sweet.. ilu genffi!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Saturday, September 03, 2005
made this for gen. she made smt else for us. damn sweet. ilu genffi!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Saturday, September 03, 2005
9.02.2005
whee! hols are starting. we had dance today. and i strained my muscle. at this rate, i can never ever ever ever dance to my satisfaction. and it's my right leg muscle. wth. fuck it. when will it ever heal?? i always envy my other classmates every fri. last period. it's always lit, mrs lim period. we'll shout thank god it's friday. haha. but i can never shout. never. =( cos i noe there's dance later and i'll be so tired after dat. sigh. even today, when it is the last day of school. still got dance. and everyone was shouting and screaming. wahlao. fuck. i really dread straining my muscle and not being able to walk properly. argh. i cant stand it. why?? when will my bloody fucking leg heal????????? argh!!!! i'm bloody pissed! feel lyk a fucking handicapped asshole. =(( i'm sad.
on a lighter note, i did ok for this term! yay! was surprised when i got my progress report. din expect. seeing that i did lyk shit for english and science. wahlao . now even my chinese is better than english! lol. it's weird. hella.
i made a timetable again. but seeing how unsuccessful the last one was, i'm praying i'll keep to this. really. i'm scared the slacking part of me take over. haha.
bloody nervous for tmr.
[flashes of your shadow]
at Friday, September 02, 2005
8.28.2005
argh!!! i cant stand it! i hate this shit!! why do i feel this way?? and why of ALL ppl, it must be ME? it's impossible.
i dun think i am.
or at least. i hope. i'm not.
[flashes of your shadow]
at Sunday, August 28, 2005
damn disappointed.
wif myself.
fuck.
=(
[flashes of your shadow]
at Sunday, August 28, 2005
why am i feeling this way?
i dun understand.
[flashes of your shadow]
at Sunday, August 28, 2005
8.26.2005
yay! we won zany!! wif 2/6. gosh! so damn unbelieveable! whee!!!!! we wore black tops and skirts and ties and headbands. and strips of cloth all over. and mine flew away when we were playing at the beach. a little caucasian kid picked it up and played wif it. lol. gosh. still cant believe we won.. so all those staying backs for recess and after school, meeting ups were not wasted. yay!! we din think dat we would win. haha. but we did! yay!
we went to joce hse after sch ytd to do the last minute stuffs( which we din even use.). when i came out of the studio after dance, i saw nic joce joan running to me and were damn frantic. they were lyk, "sorry steph.. we made a damn big mistake. we did smt very very bad. sorry...." so i went to see wad happened. they had bought 40 damn hideous hats. horrendous. ew. i was shocked when i saw them. damn shocked. they decided to go to joce hse to paint and make them nicer. went to the swings. den we showed dahlia grace tan ally the hats. grace and dah came to joce's hse too. ordered pizza. eeps. on d way there, i as lyk thinking how impossible it was to actually make them nice overnight. it would be a miricle. we promised each other not to play and slack ard. nic made me promise not to dance and made joan promise not to read mags(which is wad she whole day whole life does when we stay back for whatever). but i was slacking away. den i decided to help! got a pair of scissors and cut up hats into masks. haha. left at 9.10. freaking late rite!!!! i was damn bloody freaked out!!! wanted to call cab but joan said it was dangerous. decided to just take bus home. i waited damn long for d 76. but 70 came instead. so i took that. i had a pointy cap, a loooong pair of scissors in the bag i was carrying. planned to stab anyone who dared to come near. hahaha. i was so scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=((( it was my first time i stayed after school until so damn bloody late!! only reached home at 10.15??? damn bloody dark. but the damn bus was so crowded. couldnt get a seat so i stood. talked to joan d whole way. haha! until i reached home. hee. was talking abt random stuff. haha.
went to parkway after sch todae to get bangles and earrings and shades and thick hair bands. only managed to get earrings. from mini toons. and normal hairbands from chameleon or smt. den rushed to east coast. dressed up and prepared and things lyk that. God! i was bloody nervous. i fucking messed up during the performance. fuck! =(((( the oomph ahh part. dammit fuck fuck. but at least we still won. yay! =))
went back to parkway. joan needed to go for dinner so i was just me joce nic. ate, walked ard, left. missed a 76. so we waited and waited. oh! and percy pig finally came back in stock! got to eat it. yay!
the bus ride was scary. =( gosh. so bloody empty. so diff from ytd.was freaked out. again. talked to joce until home. whee! so it lessened my fear. a little. heh.
damn bloody beat now. it was a long week. now dat zany's over, i can put my mind to studying. good!=)
[flashes of your shadow]
at Friday, August 26, 2005
8.23.2005
huh. my maid just woke me up cos i crashed on the sofa after talking to joce. i was already trying to ignore tasha sniffing my hand then when i slept she woke me up saying that if i slp now later i cant slp den tmr it's hard for me to get up. argh. wad shit la. was damn inactive just now on the fone. hahahaha. poor joceffi. talking to herself. and trying to whistle. but i was damn tired la. i might be going to turn in early tonight.. =))
[flashes of your shadow]
at Tuesday, August 23, 2005
argh i'm so damn pissed off and sick and tired of everything so just
LEAVE
ME
ALONE!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Tuesday, August 23, 2005
8.22.2005
c'mon tears!
fall! fall! fall!
drip! drip! drip!
you'll make me feel better.
cos i cant feel any worse now.
[flashes of your shadow]
at Monday, August 22, 2005
ponned dance. to do zany. feel so bad. =(
we(me dahlia joan joce nic) finished up first banner and completed second. i think dahlia did the second one all on her own. the first one is reeeeeeeeeeaaaaallllii nice. yayy!!!!! joan and nic painted the background black while me and dah choreographed the steps. er. i think dah choreographed. i just sat there. and laughed. and she walked out on me so many times k!!!! =((( cos she thinks i was luffin at her. actually, i just cant imagine the class doing all those steps. ahahahaha. damn funny. at least. to me. lol. she kept asking wad it means if i luffed the heeheehee way. haha!! hopefully tmr jana can help me choreo. hopefully. will you, janaffi??? haha.
at the beginning part i was damn sad cos my maid told me i got no letter. when will they ever send??? kns. =((
but i helped drawing the polka dots on the first banner. whee! i think it rawks! damn fucking nice!!! dah and joan pinned both the banners at the back of the class. we left at... 6.45? wahlao. and the damn 76 take so long to come. waited for...15 mins?? haha. when i reached home it was damn bloody dark. thank God i brought keys. if not cant open my gate den i stuck outside my condo i'll die. of fear.
i was kinda sad. just now. so i was reading and eating dinner. den joce called me. haha. her bubbly voice makes me luff. can imagine her head at sims ville talking to me. her head is so huggable!!!!!!!!! whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
during math i was damn sad cos my results so low. i wont do well this yr la. results for ca are lyk shit can!!!!! fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!! felt lyk crying. cos i was so dissapointed in myself. seriously. i slacked lyk shit this yr. i'm deproving lyk shit. fuckkit!!! but jana and joan talked to me and stuff so i felt better. and joce let me hug her head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she was kinda reluctant but she still let me hug!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!! haha. me and her are being so retarded lately. lyk staring at each other lyk we were lovers. ahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!! biggest joke of the century man. lol!
i'm gonna try to think of steps now. tata!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Monday, August 22, 2005
8.21.2005
the past two days were realli busy. haha. wif zany.
[ytd]
went to nic's hse. dah had amazing race in the morn so we went to tm to collect nic's fone and get stuff for iap. went to century square cos someone told me there is a party shop. so me and joce went to search for it but dun haf. so i called tiqah to ask for nazzy's number cos i think nazzy was the one who told me century square had party shop. but couldnt reach nazzy. and tiqah says she think dun haf. huh. so walked back to tm. went to ntuc to buy snacks for later and party stuff. bought balloons. they're so cute!!!! their bunnies!! wif EARS!!! lol. bought 15. din get to buy sticks tho. cos in one pack there is 10 onli. nazzy told me to expect 15 guests. den wad i do wif the extra 5? so i just bought the bunny rabbits. den i realized i did not brg enough cash out.so i couldnt help tiqah buy. sorry tiqah!!! =(( den i paid up and went to Mcs to sit. we blew those balloons there. haha. but some assholes were staring at us cos we took their friends seat. huh. who ask them come so late?? my fault ah? so we left. fuckkums. we went to fox. spent quite sometime there. heh. den went to tanah merah to meet dahlia. we took a bus to nic's hse.
waited for dahlia to draw the banner before we could paint it. i met lao shi there!!! and i just saw her at my hse. lol. talked a lotta crap la. oh! and i got thousand and one mosquito bites!!! kns! so i put on repellant. i was d onli one k. if gen was there she'd put wif me. hmph. den we realized nic's room has two mirrors facing each other and we talked abt beliefs and superstitions and religions and stuff. heh. den mummy and daddy picked me up. i told them abt my plan. they were sad and disappointed in me. i felt so bad. so selfish. =((
[todae]
went for a run when i woke up. wif tasha. she's so ass k. dun wanna run. i had to drag her d whole way. wahlao. den went home and ate my brunch and did some studying. damn little. gosh!! i'm so slack!! finals are just 4 weeks away!!! wad haf i been up to??? argh!!! den bathe and met the rest up ps in spotlight. to do costume. ended up not doing much. just bought one roti prata man skirt. damn. how??? den went for lunch. since i'd already had mine, i just drank a cup of peach tea. den we went back to spotlight. haha. we did smt VERY VERY BAD there. hahahaha. gosh. dahlia's idea. and me and joce kept staring at each other. lame!!! hahaha. she's scary when she stare. reminds me of...skeleton. ahahahahahaha!!!!! she looks possessed. freaky. haha. a few rounds. i won two times. she won once. cos i was distracted. forget by wad. haha. and joan started being weird and singing christmas carols. gosh!! lol. den we left. i had to go for yoga. so i left first. the rest went to mcs i think. nic told me dat at mcs and starbucks, she had to kp footing the bill. hahaha. poor darling. i told her i'd give her a hug tmr. she said she'll hug me back! yay! haha.
went to eat a a jap restaurant wif daddy and bro. mummy din come. i ate so freaking much!!!!
feel so fat now. sheesh.
[flashes of your shadow]
at Sunday, August 21, 2005
8.19.2005
damn pissed off todae. talked to joan on d fone just now. =(
i used to care. i used to cry.
but i dun anymore.
i thot you, of all ppl would understand.
appearantly you dun.
so, fine.
[flashes of your shadow]
at Friday, August 19, 2005
8.15.2005
anyone has any frigging idea how much singapore sucks?
i noe i do.
i cant stand it here. the stress, the pain, the sufferings... it's all weighing me down. DOWN DOWN DOWN d frigging drain. God. help me. cant take this shit no more. realli at my WITS END! this is total crap. why d FUCK must i be borned here? why didnt mummy agree to daddy and let me be borned in australia? den i could be an aussie. or anything. but not a singaporean. i dun understand. EVERYTHING seems to go against me. realli realli feel lyk giving up and go lie in one corner and rot. den dat could end EVERYTHING. whee! seriously on the verge of losing hope and faith and everything else.
i'm supposed to appreciate. i'm supposed to be grateful. being appreciative and grateful stinks! why must i always supposed do stuff i dun wanna do, feel stuff i dun wanna feel? i hate singapore to the core, and nothing and no one can make me change my mind.
cos it sucks here. period.
[flashes of your shadow]
at Monday, August 15, 2005
8.13.2005
went to dahlia's hse just now.. to discuss zany parade. i woke up at lyk..6.30??? my maid woke me up. so early. huh. so i got outta bed and did my hair and stuff. den i was rushing lyk shit cos i thot i'll be damn bloody late. i was running all over my hse to borrow my mum's choker and find my shorts. decided to wear a skirt den change there. fuck! my frigging skirt was see thru!!! kns! somemore i just had to wear a hot pink thong. perfect. just damn perfect. and my bra was being weird this morning!!!! took so long just to adjust it. den i told miah to pack some cookies and give it to me. i ate on d bus. it was so empty! woots! i love empty buses. not too empty tho. heh. den on d bus i just realized how frigging early i was. i was smsing joce and nic and joan to hurry them. i waited at school bus-stop for..15 mins?? got so many fucking starers. wanna scourge out their eyeballs man. irritated lyk hell. stare wad stare? joan also had her fair share of starers. a cleaner was staring too...lol!!! den we took 10 to dahlia's stop. met nic there and we tried to find our way to dahlia's hse. hahaha.got lost. haha. and got so many dogs. joan was clutching my hand so tight can!!! she was damn freaked out. haha. poor lil'joanffi. so cute. we gave up finally and got joce to call dahlia. she called and we finally got there. heh.
we went up to her room and crapped so much. haha. we were lyk talking abt random stuffs. and me and joan said we cant stand dat cheena euu and moii and luvv and whatever double ii and double uu and double vv irrtating shit. gross gross gross. eww, eww, eww. and dahlia kept saying dat this ---> -______________-" is so cute. lol. me and joan cant stand it. it looks... retarded. sry la. haha. we talked abt d costume and stuff. and d song and cheer. den thot of some steps. heh. damn shit. nic wanted to cycle in as entrance. wad shit la!!! lol! den we cooked our own lunch. mee goreng i think. it's instant. we saw blackie and joan was damn damn damn terrified of it. she called it barkie cos it barks. haha. den to her all dogs in d world can be named barkie la! hahaha!gotta feeling she's scared of all doggies. she's afraid of my puny lil' tasha! kept saying tasha's weird. whatever k. heh. and we sorta messed up d stove area. noodles, seasoning, soya sauce spilt all over. haha. den we put everything in a huge frying pan. haha. den we watched ndp and ate. haha. and me and nic wanna get outta this damn country. cant take it anymore. hate MOE so much. cas and assessments every week. finished one, another comes along. wad shit. but #1: no cash #2: no lodging #3: no passport. hmph. this is so damn crap. but i want to badly. to either australia or america. i dun mind both cos i love both. =) den joce gotta go for tuition. we tried to make her not go but she still went in d end..=(
we went back up to dahlia's room. talk and talk and talk some more. abt d most random stuffs .den dahlia was lyk, ok! from now onwards, we'll discuss abt zany and not get distrcted. lol. onli happened for wad? 15 mins? haha. den we talk and talk and talk more. i put d damn nice purple cloth on my leg and started rubbing against it cos it felt so nice. dahlia kept saying i was masturbating. ??! wth la. and she keeps calling me leong. izzit damn nice to call ppl by their last name??? haha. i dun think so. ah foo. haha. ah tham ah wong ah tay!!!!!!! hahahahahaha!!!! den we were saying how nice it'd be if we haf middle names and nice nice caucasianish last names. =)) dat'll be so damn cool. no more leong. haha. den joan and dahia and nic and me were sharing experiences wif our parents and brothers. haha. joan is super mean to her brothers la. haha. so unfair. whole day whole life get her way... unfair man. if only i'm dat lucky.. oh! den we thot of super crappy slogans for our banner. and we gossiped lyk crazy. haha! joan thot of one for d banner dat was damn funny and cheena and we luffed lyk hell. lol! haha! we left ard...5? cos i needed to go home so i could bathe and dress and go for dinner. haha. and mummy rebonded her hair AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! SO FREAKING UNFAIR CAN!!!!!! I ALSO WANT!!!!!!!!!!
anyways. on d way back to school, joanffi and me were talking and crapping. shared some experiences abt dolls. freakified. haha. den i changed to 76 to go home took a quick bathe before going. and came back. so damn fast. heh.
[flashes of your shadow]
at Saturday, August 13, 2005
8.11.2005
was over-reacting just now. i'm fine now.=)))
thanks joanffi... ilu loads and loads and loads and loads too!!!!!!<333
thanks so much....
yay! now dat everything's fine, i can get on wif my life.
whee!!!!!!!!!
=)))))))))))))))))))
so damn happi!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Thursday, August 11, 2005
sick. and tired. of everything.
fuck d hell outta here.
leave me alone.
hate my life.
p.s. can we pls frigging go??? all along you gguys want me and joce to go and i haf no guts to do it but now i haf, you dun wanna go anymore????? ARGH!!!! wad's this shit??? can we just GO??????????????
[flashes of your shadow]
at Thursday, August 11, 2005
8.08.2005
hi! just finished bathing. whee! i feel so clean! washed my face twice in the shower cos i dun wanna haf pimples. haha!
went to orchard after school(which ended at 10.30?). we cabbed there cos we dun wanna take the bus and mrt. haha! we were debating whether to watch charlie and the chocolate factory, bewitched or wedding crashers. finally decided to watch d last one. we asked a couple to buy the tix for us. d4en we walked ard and stuff. there were so many ppl and it was freaking crowded so i got damn annoyed. we din noe wad to eat cos EVERY-FREAKING-WHERE was crowded. i'm serious. there were no seats at all. everywhere. God!
finally decided to buy popcorns and nachos and drinks and we sat while waiting for d movie to start. d sign came on dat we could enter the theatre. so we headed to d entrance. there were two guys standing there. i walked up to him and presented the tickets. he tore half and gave it to me. den the other guy asked either joan, nic or joce whether she was 16. den d guy who was handing me the ticket lyk, held it there, waiting for me to answer as well. i nodded and looked irritated. den he gave it to me and we all entered. yayy!!!! haha.
before the movie, they screened a couple of previews. when they were showing the maid, joan lyk, started whimpering. hahaha! there were a few assholes who shrieked and scream. wth. got damn annoyed. haha! i think wedding crashers's kinda nice. haha. me and joan were damn impatient waiting for the juicy scenes. dun freaking haf. huh. boring. there were a lotta fucks, tho. but wad d hell la.
after dat we walked ard. damn boring. ran into my pri school fren at converse. and i saw i new sports bra dat i want in nike. hee hee. den we walked to wisma. boring. den we walked to pacific plaza. also boring. wth la. singapore sucks. i din buy anything. at all. hmph!!!! wanted to get a black cap sleeved at topshop but 6 is too small and 10 is too big. dammit! and d spagetti is lyk super ultra long it can cover my underwear la! huh.
den went to shaw to eat den leave.
wad a damn boring day. seriously think singapore sucks. and my earlobes aching lyk hell cos of my earrings. i think i move my ears too much la.
[flashes of your shadow]
at Monday, August 08, 2005
8.06.2005
i'm kinda happi todae...chatting wif gen now.. talking abt bras. haha!
anyways. went for njc interview todae. it went alriiight.. onli.4 ,male interviewers. you noe how scary??? sheesh. haha. it was kinda fast. d seniors there are nice. hee.
after dat, waited for mummy to pick me. den we went to great world city to eat tea- break and i cut my hair!finally!!!! hahaha. and d asshole salon idiot was insulting my hair!! stupid gay freak. but anyways.. i'm liking it.. haha!i haf fringe! not a lot, but it's still there. haha!
den i went to triumph while mummy went to see workout outfits. she bought two slacks. it's kinda nice.. yay! and d best part is, i can wear them too! whee!
den went to paragon. mummy went to collect her shoes while i went to roxy. nth nice there. huh.den went to the skipping girl shop or smt. stuff there is nice man. wanted to buy a halter. but it doent realli suit me. plus it's damn big. den met daddy and bro den went for dinner. at d jap restaurant. den mummy said my hairband looked damn cheapo(it's from minitoons.) so she said she'll brg me to metro to get nice ones.yay! i din want daddy and bro to come so they went to toys r us den go home while me and mummy went to metro. on d way we stepped into nike. i FINALLY got the halter bra. finally k. waited lyk dunno how long la. one month? haha! but it's white, not black. still. i lyk it so damn much!!!!!! whee!!!!! metro got no hairbands. wth. but went to bra compartment.went to triumph. omg!!! so happi!!! bot two bras there. one is d colourful hawaiian holiday. the other is all black 'cept for some black and orange rings on d strap. whee!!!!!!!!! so happi!!!omg! hahaha! so excited! hee. spent damn long tym there. den wanted to get some g-strings. d woman there wanted to measure my ass k. wtf. so bloody malu can!!!my mummy was luffing her frigging head off. wahlao. izzit dat nice to see your own daughter being so embarrssed????? sheesh. i bot d hot pink thong in d end. haha! it's damn cute. i also bot a black thong to match my black bra! yay! i'm so happi!!! haha!
den went home. on d way mummy was playing mariah carey's album. we turned the volume up so damn loud and we were singing "we belong together" at d top of our lungs! hahaha! it's so funni la. hahahahaha. so loud k.
haha.
*i miss ya...
[flashes of your shadow]
at Saturday, August 06, 2005
7.31.2005
i'm damn sad..
ytd had gen's farewell pary at ann's condo. gen nic joce met at 9 at my hse to put on make up and stuff. waited for joan..
ard 10 we left. we shopped and took neos when we went to heeren...that'll be d last of them...=((
met grace soh and dahlia and grace tan. went to marche to eat. dahlia refused to wear a racer back. damn bad.
we ate and talked there. dawn came. played luffing game. me and grace tan are the worst. i won her by 3 seconds.whoo!!! den played this game dawn taught us. its lyk you haf to guess a number from 1 to 100. if you get it right den you haf to eat this gross thing. we mixed tartar sauce wif wild mushroom soup, ham and chicken crepe, ice, strawberry espirit, and lots and lots of salt and pepper. gross and disgusting. dahlia ate three forkfulls. gen ate two. den we played truth of dare. i was first la!! den had to lick the whole damn plate up. eww.
den went to shop ard at tangs and pacific plaza. nic paid half for my roxy bag!!! yayy!!! den went to wisma den headed to tenah merah<--sp?. first part we played in the pool and walked ard the estate. it is so nice and so un-singapore!!!! damn nice la..so barbie-ish.
den we came back. played 007 and ate. and fetched joan from mrt. we presented a powerpoint and sang two songs. one was billy s by skye sweetnam, gen's favourite, but we chaged the lyrics. here's how it goes:
Cheena –pok Land
*to the tune of Billy S by Skye Sweetnam
Without Gen, Monday mornings suck
It’s way too boring without your laugh
Why go China just like that?
Genffi Genffi, no! You know we will miss your hugs, woo!
You don’t need to go cheena-pok land
Meet Jackie Chan or Caucasians
What it’s like without you in our lives
Don’t wanna break up, don’t go!
What is wrong with Singapore?
Don’t forget, we’re still your friends
Why go China just like that?
Genffi, Genffi, no! You know we will miss your boobs, woo!
We don’t ask of you to be perfect
We like it just the way you are
We quarrel sometimes, but we always make up
Cant we stay the best of friends?
Get out, get out, get out, get out, woo!Get out, get out, get out, get out!To skip or not to skip? that is the question.Get out, get out, get out, get out, woo!Get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out,Get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out!
You don’t need to go cheena-pok land
Meet Jackie Chan or Caucasians
What it’s like without you in our lives
Don’t wanna break up, don’t go!
We don’t ask of you to be perfect
We like it just the way you are
We quarrel sometimes, but we always make up
Cant we stay the best of friends?
and a barney song:
gen loves boobs
we love hugs
dat's why we give boobie hugs
wif a great sweet friend lyk you in our lives
don't you think you ought to stay.
gen cried. den i went over to hug her. den we decided to go to d pantry to cry. joan joce nic came too. we locked the door. i hugged gen for so long and cried on each other's shoulders. damn sad. den we finally let go to wash our face. everyone was crying. joce was wailing.. we stopped finally and decided we should go out now. but when we open the door we realised we were not strong enough.we closed the door agn. den we were telling gen how miserable our lives would be without her. so sad..
gen and i were supposed to lyk grow up together and go jc and university together and share hostel and look for boyfriends together and give birth together and i call my daughter roxanne and she call hers chloe. it's not going to happen.all of it. not going to happen. all our dreams shattered. i was so damn sad.. and without gen who else will force us to do stupid action ofor neos? who else will cheer us up? who else will go so happy go lucky? who else should i confide in? who else should i tell my deepest darkest secrets??? who???? argh!!!!!! realli dun want her to go... it's so freaking sudden! damn!
den joan cried until she vomitted. finally got out of the stuffy pantry to the toilet. humiliating. den we cried there. hugged each other. almost everyone cried. ally chesed shiren ameera grace soh syazzie came in. it's so sad. everyone was crying la. gosh.. i could not stop crying. i din want her to go. at all. i wanted her to stay... i'll miss her and her hugs and her laughter and her smiles and her crap and her kisses and her voice and her existence in school. i was crying my heart out.
den decided to haf a sleepover at my place. nic's granny's birthday, so she could not and joce too so gen and joan came. went over to gen's hse first and waited for her. it was ard 12 when we reached my hse.
me and joan bathed, den we talked and gen was online and waited for dahlia to wake up to send us powerpoint but she din wake up. so we turned the com off and lied on the bed.. gen read the black book dat the class wrote and ours too.. den talked and talked until we slept.
joan left early to go for church. joce could not come over so nic came. chatted wif joce online. went to the playground. played until gen parents came. we thot it was d end. d last tym we saw her. so me ands nic sat down and talked. gosh. damn depressing. den came back home and talked some more. den chatted wif joce agn. and dahlia taught me how to conference!!!! whoopee!!! thank you!
gen's coming to sch tmr b4 she leaves! 7 to 7.45!!!! yay!!!!!!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Sunday, July 31, 2005
Nic's at my hse now. we're feeling damn super depressed and fucked up.
made a list of things we hate abt life.
1)seperations and goodbyes
2)pimples
3)having false hopes high
4)getting hopes and dreams crashed
5)clique quarrels
8)selfish assholes
7)bitchy teachers
8)stress
9)exams
10)not getting things your way
11)having misunderstandings
12)taking ppl for granted when they are there
13)school
14)boyfriendlessness
15)dissapointments
16)having strict parents
17)rules
18)public presentation
19)sicknesses
20)criticism
21)no freedom
22)inperfection
23)not being super pretty
24)ppl leaving
25)time flies when we're having the tym of our lives but she slow when we're suffering
26)lonliness
27)bordom
28)suffering
29)ccas
30)SINGAPORE
life's sucha bitch
* can you pls stay? we love you so much.. how can you go just lyk dat??? it's WAY too sudden...
[flashes of your shadow]
at Sunday, July 31, 2005
7.28.2005
Gen's last day todae!! =(((
so sad. we spent our last recess in the classroom helping her to give out featherpens. haha. her trademark.
after school went to joce place. had photoshoot. bloody motherfucking embarrassing thing happened there. tho i din show it, i was fucking embarrassed. wad d hell la. fuckkit. eeps! blushing now dat i'm thinking of it man. kns la. fuck.
but overall, was quite fun.
*still disturbed by it. =(((((((
[flashes of your shadow]
at Thursday, July 28, 2005
7.25.2005
i'm looking out of my window... d sky's so gloomy. dun lyk it.
had dance but i din do anything. just sat down and studied geog. haf test tmr. it's official. stephanie leong, you're dead meat la. damn. i just read thru...cant concentrate. just haf so much stuff on my mind la. gosh...
[flashes of your shadow]
at Monday, July 25, 2005
7.24.2005
my heart's flutterin...
i dunno wad's wrong wif me...
puzzling.
just went to the perfect man website... i love the soundtrack. definitely gonna get it...
the njc test ytd was ok... i think it's lyk a joke. they lyk ask you if you take drugs and smoke and other stuff... and they ask if you are satisfied with your figure or weight or smt lyk dat.. hahaha...
the next step is d interview.. then they decide.. lyk 50 wont get in la... gosh... i'm praying so hard... i dun wanna be part of dat 50 ppl...
i'm scared..
[flashes of your shadow]
at Sunday, July 24, 2005
7.18.2005
omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!! i'm selected for njc next round!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woots!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Monday, July 18, 2005
7.15.2005
hi!!!! i wanted to blog tmr but decided to do it todae!! haha!
[tue]
went to joce hse. me gen joan and nic. damn fun. did art. mdm seah was pmsing lyk shit.wad d hell. anyways. realized we all did wrongly so we went to joce hse to do together. ate chicken rice and talked for a while and den do art. den me and gen went to the gym to run. cos it was pe day but i was sick, so could not run. i dun wanna be unfit, so i ran on d treadmill. it's so much easier. i wish 2.4 is on treadmill. dat would so rawk man!!! den went to playground. met d cutest lil'elf there. his name is benjamin. he realli looks lyk my bro. big tym la. we played freeze and monkey wif him. before he came we were playing king's castle. damn damn damn damn fun man. love it. i found him so cute dat i decided to video him. and snap a pic. hahahaha. den went home.
[wed]
it is a boring day. and ms rosalie is annoying.
[thu]
went to joce hse agn. this tym w/o gen. she got tuition. darn it. we did geog. boring boring boring. started on drama!! hahahaha... kiasu ppl. hahaha!! anyways. decided to slack a little and go to d playground agn. fun fun fun!!!!!! din see d cute elf tho. sad. but still. damn fun!!!!!! it was raining weirdly. heavy, light, stop, light,heavy,stop, light and blah blah blah. you get d picture. so we decided to play hide and seek. haha. lame. felt so embarrassed cos there are a couple of tkss and tkgs pplthere. i found the most PERFECT but STUDIDEST place to hide. guess where? under d security gaurd table.
you noe how freaking LAME i felt??????? SUPER la!!!! dammit. and ppl who were working out in d gym could see me la!!some ppl were staring. but it is d most perfect plce to hide!!!! whee!!!! until. d mean bad security gaurd slam d table with his hand on top of my head and told me to get out. hahahahaha. i ran to d ballroom to hide. he also told me to get out. wad d hell la. den i pathetically hid behind a pillar. asshole la!!! den i saw joan. we waved. she told me to come. so i ran over. and we were luffin lyk mad ppl. hahahahahaha!!!!!! den funny and lame and weird and cool and fun la!!! den we hid behind some steps sitting on d soil. how mush more gross can it get???? omg, ew ew ew....den we decided we need to pee. so we ran to find toilet. darn it. saw nic and joce. (joce is d seeker. nic just came out cos she thot we were all caught. haha.) den we ran back to our hiding place. it was a looooooong while until they found us. yay! finally. whateverr. kinda lame now thinking abt it. but still damn fun. by then it was raining heavily so we decided to go home. had a VERY VERY VERY VERY BAD headache and my eyes were damn pain on d way home. felt irritated. crashed on d sofa w/o bathing. hahaha. felt better on friday.
[fri]
went to nic hse after school. we haf d same tutor. we decided to surprise her. damn funny la. videod the whole thing...hahahahahaha!!!!! watched it more then 10 times already. damn damn damn damn funny...all 3 of us (me nic and laoshi) were screaming and jumping up and down. damn cool!!!!!! den wrote d skit and acted it out. plot's simple. den we played some games in nic's garden lyk fisheman's net and freeze. den gen and gen played badminton.i think they are good. den me nic joce were at her swing playing and talking... revealed some stuff....but i cant tell! sworn to secrecy!!! *winks*den we cabbed home. tired now. one whole busy week.. =))
gen's leaving in8 days. i dun want her to go...
[flashes of your shadow]
at Friday, July 15, 2005
7.04.2005
went joce hse todae...din do much, but t'was fun fun fun!!!!hahaha.. woke up early... guess sometimes i'm more of a morning person den a night person..heh..
anyway.. gen offered to give me a ride to jocee hse..yay! she told me to be at my condo's main gate at 6.30. you noe smt? i was rushing lyk mad to be there by 6.30cos i took my own sweet tym to eat and i kept dilly-dally-ing.hahaha.. and you noe smt? gen was late. i rushed for nth. again! dammit! argh!!!! it was raining,and my maid just brought down one umbrella, wif a tiny hole in it. wad kinda shit is this?? den obviously i got wet rite? plus i was wearing my mummy's brand new island shop flip-flops. it got wet, obviously.. when i got down already and waited for a little while, i smsed gen. guess wad? she was still at home doing God-knows-wad. walao! and mymaid kept trying to snatch d umbrella away from me, cos i wanted more shelter. crap man!!!! was super super pissed off...den finally gen came. yay!!! so reached at d main gate at 8 on d dot. haha..
while we waited for nic we played uno stacko...haha. gen lost...she was screaming lyk a mad woman.. den nic came. an hour late, i might add. so we swam...d slide was damn fun... me and gen hugged each other as we slid down...hahaha..damn cool.. den we persuaded nic to get in d water...when she finally did, we went to d deep pool. i noe it was only 1.5m and i'm 1.625m, but i thot i was drowning..dat freaking gen made it worse by hugging me.. i was so SCARED!!!!! i thot i was going to die!!!!!!!!! and this was not how i wanted to die!!!! and she wrappped her leg ard mine and went so high up, it touched my...um..you-noe-wad. i started shrieking lyk a mad ass and was lyk, I'M DYING!!!! I'M DROWNING!!! STOP!!! GEN!!! PLEASE STOP!!! I'M BEGGING YOU!!!!! but do you think it worked? of course not. i'd just wasted my breath AND my effort. struggled lyk mad to get outta d pool.. dammit...we sat down at some seats at d deep side of d pool. i was still trying VERY HARD to get over my panic, when gen opened her BIG mouth and told me dat if there was a war, i'ld be d 1st one to die. thanks a lot. den we swam back to d shallow end. naturally, i was d slowest cos i was clutching to d edge of d pool as if my life depended on it.hahaha.den we sat at d shallow side.. played truth or dare..for once truths were more fun than dare...hahaha..damn funny and cool.
after a while, we went up to joce hse to bathe and cook instant noodles..nic bathed first den me. while i bathed someone helped me to cook..yipee!!!! den when i came out, i ate.. kinda soggy.cos d soup's absorbed..haha. den while waiting for gen, we played uno stacko.. joce lost.. den we played wif gen twice den we played cards den we ordered pizza hut and watched christmas wif d kranks. very funny. but not touching. yea..den we left..
yay! i wanna do it more often...too bad gen's leaving..but she says she's coming back next chinese new year..yipee!!!!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Monday, July 04, 2005
7.01.2005
hi.. went to gen's hse just now... i was on d webcam..aisha and joce saw me...whee!!! haha.. but i noe i look damn sucky...din bath when i came home from school... just ate den crashed on my sofa den went online... told gen i wanna go to her hse..she said ok.. so i passed her a worksheet, monkey business and a bar of chocolate from miss rosalie.or izzit rosalind? whoops. haha..
she was in her rents bedroom... on d com.. so i chatted wif joce and aisha for a while...den we watched monster-in-law there...it's nice..din get to finish it..left d dvd wif gen..hope she will rmb to bring to joce hse on mon...hahaha...remember ok, genffi...
i'm bored...chatting wif kell..but she left to watch a hong kong show... wad hong kong show? haha..
till then!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Friday, July 01, 2005
6.29.2005
HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY, GEN!!!!
ILU, ILU, ILU!!!
school todae was d same old boring stuff... haha. after dat went to park mall to eat fish and co. food took so long to be served..haha..joan was lyk, customer is always right. den when i wanted to ask them to hurry, she dun let.hahahaha!!! den there's this big ant on d table and joce was shrieking la... hahahaha!!!! she dare not even lyk, kill it..hahaha..joan killed it and wanted joce to touch it.. poor lil joceffi...hahaha...
after we made a toast. so we asked for water to toast. i said, happy birthday gen. may you haf a safe trip to china.
den we were lyk, CHEERS!!!!!! den dat gen extra extra said, WHOOHOO!!! wad d hell la. restaurant leh. proper etiquette gen. proper ettiquette. we were so freaking embarrassed cos there were lyk one whole bunch of ajc ppl behind..but it also wasnt lyk they had proper ettiquette. huh.
after dat on d way to d mrt station i learntt smt abt myself..not realli myself. my body...yay!! i'm so happi!! hahahahaha. wad crap. den went to cine, got pissed off wif d neoprint shop asshole, den went to heeren den went for tuition. 1/2 an hour late. whoops. hahaha.. whateverr.
=))
[flashes of your shadow]
at Wednesday, June 29, 2005
6.25.2005
waiting for my tutor to come. she's always so goddamn bloody late. huh.
anyway. ytd, was at njc. i hung ard wif jana. met so many rosythians and learning lab ppl.. got a couple from tkg..
d tests were damn hard!!! kns!! d first one was iq test.. 60 questions. 20 mins. what's dat la??? thank God the first few questions were easy. d last 4, i really cant do. and no tym. so in d end, i anyhow shade. oh man.
d break was super super frustrating!! think we were released at lyk..ard 10.3o+. supposed to rtn at 12.45. me and jana din noe where to go..so we just stupidly follow a couple of ppl also trying out for ip. led us to a bus stop. din noe wad bus to take. and we were too pai seh to ask other ppl for directions. bus 157 came but we din take. in d end we took cab. asked d cabbie to bring us to d nearest MCdonald's. realized we could haf simply took 157. felt realli realli dumb!!! it was damn crowded. we ordered our food and ate. thot we were late and was rushing lyk mad. thot it was 12.45 already. jana said it didnt realli matter if we were just a teeny bit late. but was still rushing. at 12.50, we left our food and ran to d bus stop. under d rain, i might add. irritating. missed a bus. was pissed off. we flagged a cab again. told him to hurry up as we were damn late. it was onli after i said dat when i looked at my watch and realized we were almost an hour EARLIER!!!! felt so freaking stupid!!! argh!! dammit. so we just walked ard d school to pass tym.
d math test was sucky and so is d english test. lost so many marks. dammit. it's so shit. confirm not getting into next round, not to mention in njc.
oh wells. nevermind! =))
i shall just stay in tkgs!=D
[flashes of your shadow]
at Saturday, June 25, 2005
6.22.2005
whee! went to wild wild wet todae.wif gen, joce and nic. joan has a lot of work to do so she cant come.. wasnt as nice as last tym cos now is d hols and it is super super crowded. yuckk. i hate crowds. it aint lyk..concert kinda crowds but d queues are damn long. especially d ular lah one. cos dat it d nicest. whee!
um.. ok.. first we took d slide. um..think it's called waterworks. i was freaking out tho i took it before... haha..but in d end when i slide down wasnt dat scary..tho i got stuck. damn scared...wad if i get stuck there forever? so i lyk tried to use my hands to push.. onli moved a lil'. heh. finally gave up and lied down. appearently dat made me slide down...whoopee!! so i lied down d whole while until i slide off..
den we took d ular lah. d queue wasnt as long..so we chatted while we waited.and sorta hunted for cute caucasians.. none in sight. darn it. ok. here comes d embarrassing part. d worker at d ular lah ride asked for 4 ppl. so d 4 of us were lyk, "me! me! me!" den we saw those guys were chinese and not so..um..ok. i shant say. anyways. when we saw them we were lyk, "dun want! dun want! " hahaha! i noe its mean..regretted doing it.. wad if i were one of those two guys? wont i be hurt? felt damn mean.. d looks on their faces.. they looked hurt. lyk they were not good enouf or whatever.ughh... i hate it when i do or say things without thinking. i feel damn insensitive. gosh. den it was finally our turn. we requested those employees to allow us to go down d slide just us 4. he allowed! yay! den during d whole ride we were trying to look for d camera cos we wanted to buy d photo. we finally saw a machine so we posed at it. den we saw anther machine dat turned out to be d camera...hahaha.. so stupid man.. so d camera shot us posing for d wrong machine... i dunno wad dat machine which we posed at for.haha. looked very very stupid. very.
wanted to go agn but d queue was WAY too long.. so we went to d lazy river. d floats are free!!! we dun haf to pay for them anymore!!woots! hahaha. i sound so bloody cheapskate. dat aint good.hahaha.we finally found two floating floats. me and nic grabbed one and joce and gen grabbed another one dragged them to the stairs to sit on it. den from there we had NO FREAKING IDEA how to get into d waves part. cos d water flows forward. stimulated by dunno wad. haha. a cute guy push gen and joce. an ah peh pushed me and nic..wad's dat??? huh.. bloody freaking unfair!!! hmph. halfway thru i dunno how, but i dropped off.. nic had d whole float to herself la. tho everyone tried to hoist me up, but sadly, d attempts were FRUITLESS!!! haha. should've captured a shot og gen's face. she was lyk, "go stephy, c'mon! up! up! up!" hahaha!!! finally gave up. this kind sweet woman gave me her float. yay! yay! yipee!yipee!yay! yay! she taught me how to get on it...it worked!!! i finally managed to get on it..haha!! den joce found a float and she got on it, so 4 of us held hands! whee!!! and we were lyk singing at d top of our voices! haha!!! so fun!!
we went for two round before getting out to d wave pool. over there so boring cos when we went, the waves stopped. wad is dat la?? darn it. after a while we got out..over there, there were a few accidents with our swimsuits, if you noe wad i mean... *smiles myteriously* heh.
next we went to d samsung slide up ride. ARGH!!!!!!!!! dat. was scary. kns. i'm so stupid to listen to joce!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! SO BLOODY SCARY!!!!!!!!! omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!!! eeeekk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!í'm breating in and out now. super freaked. oh man. first, we had trouble bringing dat bid bafoonish thing up 3 FREAKING FLIGHTS OF STAIRS! i chickened and wanted to climb back down but joce din allow me.. omg omg omg omg omg omg..i'm still freaked!!!!! den when we went up, two lady employees were tending to d ride. i screamed at their faces that i was scared. and i jumped up and down and up and down.. was so freaked!!!having trouble typing now cos i am luffing so hard abt it. i acted lyk a total ass. anyway. d two women finally got me settled down. i was still screaming at d top of my lungs. one of the woman stared at me lyk i was a mad crazy asshole and d other asked joce to tell me to shut up. i was squirming abt, and still screaming. imagine dat. gosh. one of the women taught us to sit. i was still squirming and freaking out. she slouched and gave dat bo chap bochap cant be bothered face and splashed water at both of us. we were supposed to put our legs below each other's armpits la. hahahahaha!!! so freaking funny.
den when they were getting ready to push us i started screaming as if d ridestarted. cos i thot it had. but it hadnt. d funny thing was, during d ride and wasnt screaming. i was crying. cos i was so scared... omg omg omg!!! it is as if you are dangling midair!!!!!! freaking scary!!!!!! cant stand. never going to ever ever ever ever take dat ride agn. hmph. argh!!!! so scary!!!!!!! after dat while waiting for nic and gen i thot i was going to puke.. so scared!!!! but in d end i din. whee!
den we took another round at d lazy river before playing at d playground? think it is called yakult. a few guys kept splashing us.. assholes. we sat on all d sides. it was supposed to be one person at a tym but we formed a train and went down together!!!! hahaha! totally hilarious can!!! it was nic den me den gen den joce. hahaha! and there was this slide where gen and joce sat and me and nic sat. super fun. wanted to go backwards but an employee stopped us.. hahaha!!! super super super fun fun fun!!!!!! den we wanted to go to ular lah agn. but d queue was WAY too long. so sat at d playground to discuss wad to eat for dinner. cant believe orchard got no fish and co. kns la.
ard 4++ we bathed shaared cubible. me and nic and gen and joce. awkward. seriously. but funny too. we were both stripped and were lyk, "dun look! dun look!"hahaha!!! den went to orchard.
we bot engaved rings, ate dinner, walked ard, den left. spent a total of 8 hrs together. definitely gonna do it agn... oh! and we all almost died. so scary!!! second tym. d same 4 of us.. jaywalked.. cos d traffic light so far away..i thot d coast was clear so we all walked. almost got ran over.. so scary.. so many cars honking at us la!!! gosh.. but it was... thrilling, tho. hee. a small small minute adventure. yayy! cos i din die!!!! woots!!!!!
the next tym...hopefully...wif joan?
i miss joanffi!!!!
p.s. kellyn rawks my world!!!! ilu!!! muacks!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Wednesday, June 22, 2005