i'm feeling very down todae...got no mood to do anything...i just came back from tuition and i realized my graph question i did part 2 wrongly. dammit.but anyway. that's not d point.
i realli realli dun understand y you are being lyk dat. it realli confuses me.wad's ur point exactly? u can come straight out and tell me. i hope-and i think- that i can handle the truth. izzit me? if u tell me, i'll back away. i dun mind...if it makes u happy..but wad's up wif u? now i got zero mood to do anything.at all.i keep doing soul-searching over and over agn in d hopes of finding out where i went wrong. there's a few, i guess. i dunno. am i being over-sensitive? but if i am, den y [*] and [*] feels this way too? y cant u tell us wad d hell is wrong? i hate it. I'm very fuckkin stressed as it is and now this. i cant handle it anymore. this whole pile is realli shrinking me...making me feel much much smaller than ever.. i cannot take it!! i'm not strong enouf. if i am do u think i'll be in this state?
-lost and confused-
[flashes of your shadow]
at Wednesday, May 25, 2005
5.18.2005
my nose is an asshole.i was sneezing away lyk an idiot and i kept sniffling.was so damn cold this morning..so bloody sucky...
and had some kinda misunderstanding this morning...whatever.i wont do anything abt it anymore. i cant be bothered. you obviously haf not been picking up d obvious hints i dropped. so currently, i'm not gonna give a shit, and i'll try not to think abt it anymore. but. seriously. wad's ur prob??? dun you get it??? argh!!! u noe wad? forget it. just...get on wif your life and i'll go on wif mine..
i wont give a damn anymore!!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Wednesday, May 18, 2005
5.12.2005
oh! i forgot to mention dat i went for lunch with anna, jana and cheryl...went to kfc at parkway...saw some guys there.i thot they looked lyk peanuts. HAHAHA!!!!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Thursday, May 12, 2005
man... was feeling so damn bloody sad and depressed 2dae...damn surayah la..she's so mean...ugh...shant elaborate...was so pissed during chi todae...cos of her...dammit.
but i guess i was ok a little after dat. but i was a little quiet 2dae during pe...cos of some stupid mix up. wtf.. and was super lonely at my end of the foyer...so made nic come wif me to gen's and ally's side...heh...super funny...we were making some "finger-to-d-sky" action and saying whoo-hoo! hahax. felt a little better.heh. den after our game we went to d pe store-room to keep d balls and d cones.appearently we forgot to bring d key so we waited there while someone went to take. me and gen were bouncing d ball back and forth and i was venting my frustrations...heh.they empathized la. haha.there and then, i felt a million times happier...at least some ppl understands.. not lyk some c.b.asshole. hehex.
but during dance i was feeling super depressed and lonely all over again... so i kept to myself...was feeling unsociable..so i din mingle.. after dance i immediately called joan..den i poured out everything... talked to her for probably one hour plus...from bus stop till all d way home and still continued..hee..she realli made me feel better...much better... cos i was realli feeling shitty and just wanted to kill myself..but i guess i din...yay...thanks joan..ilu...
[flashes of your shadow]
at Thursday, May 12, 2005
5.01.2005
hi! i'm back!haha... should be studying... but i mugged lyk crazy in the morning la... heh... haf not studied chappie 6 yet... only 3,4,5... sigh... dammit... so many damn bloody chaps.
camer home from watching lord of the dance.... itz so bloody NICE!!!! omg... its so nice.they're so good.... wanna watch agn... heh...
i'm gonna mug now... tata!
[flashes of your shadow]
at Sunday, May 01, 2005
